I realy dont know where my place is in life. I love music, worship and leading. Is it right to assume that I should be a worship leader? I mean it is the gift God has given me so why shouldn't I? These are the questions that I have been asking myself lately. The last couple of months I have been feeling that I shouldnt be leading worship, but I dont know if I'm only saying this because its hard. I get on the stage and I have a hard enough time getting my own self into that state of worship. I completly froget that theres a congragation that I'm sposed to be leading. I always thought God has called me to worship, but now I'm not so sure. If theres anyone out there reading this i sure could use a talk. 5$ says that anyone that douse feel like talking to me about it wont be from Cold Lake. Have you ever felt that you were doing everything right but everything was actually going very wrong.
anyway on a good note I after a long time of searching for one i gave up and made my own bible study, consisting of me, David and Luke. I have a feeling that im not going to learn a whole lot. The years that I have been in a small group I realy havent learned anything. I always felt more like a teacher but whatever.
Iwould like to wright more but im tired so ill try to update soon
