Touch Base

Well, since I last blogged I have graduated high school, turned 18 and been at camp for a little over than a month. Here is where I am now. I am feeling pretty broken. I so desperatly want to go home and be with good company. Its not that I went anywhere its just on top of the friends that I lost that were fun to hang out with, I lost the friends who gave me emotional stabillity. I guess its been a little over a year since Drake and Carmen left. This was when the older guys in the youth lost connection. Shawn went up to Ft Mac a couple weeks ago with Travis. Shawn was always there. Any time I realy needed help I would just crash at his house. Geoff is always good to talk to but the distance dousent help. I have fallen so far over the last couple months. I realy want to go home. Im thinking Cold Lake has taught me all it can and is starting to corrupt me. So what I hope to do some time this year is put myself somewhere that will help. Deliver me to someone, somewhere. I dont think I can live here anymore. Im just waiting for God to show me the way.